Woah it's been a few weeks...

Needless to say they have been busy ones... we are on "holiday" at the moment but as they are preparing us to be teachers they seem to think we need work to do in our break time so alas, I have been head down, bum up to the books (well the laptop!).

I have hit the wall tonight (hence the procrastination... I mean blog post...), but it is justified after a couple of really big days on the books today and yesterday, I have so much to do but I feel better for having started and knowing how much I need to do, rather than this vague I HAVE SO MUCH TO DO.

The final day of our course is the 13th of November (not that I am counting but that is only 26 weeks away... and yes I just worked that out), so we only have 6 more months of hard slog ahead! But then graduation looms... on the 17th or 19th of December (really... could they get it much closer to Christmas...), when hopefully my whole class and I will put on silly gowns and get up on stage (no tripping) and receive our Bachelor of Education, wow! Then comes the big party...

Ignore the $46 that's just my savings for that week (I wish it was what it cost to be a teacher...), 

and no I didn't do this especially for the blog, I've had that date in my diary all year... 

No point in counting my chickens before they hatch though as I still have a lot to do between now and then! The general feeling amongst us is "how on earth are we going to get everything done?!", several of my classmates and I would happily drop a paper this semester as the workload is massive but with the end goal in sight this would be silly as there is no time to catch up and next semester (our last one) is sure to be busy as well!

The good news is that I am going to be going back to Collingwood for a few days in the next couple of weeks (all going to plan) to do some testing/observing for a couple of my assignments, I cannot wait to see everyone again!

Sometimes as I work through my course work I find myself wondering how am I meant to teach this when I don't really understand it myself, but I know that teaching is one of those professions where you keep learning on the job, until you die... I mean retire... although it scares me how much I don't know I am learning all the time and the more I learn, the more interested and passionate I become.

The other day I posted a freak out similar to this one on Facebook and had some lovely comments;
Stella, who I babysit for said "Don't worry, that's how I felt when I was studying nursing. Somehow it all works out... You are going to be an awesome teacher!!!! You already are to my children." WOW, what a compliment! :) Also a former teacher of mine who has been super supportive this whole journey of mine posted "You'll get there - one step at a time! AND don't give up on your dreams." These ladies and all of the other people who support me on a day to day basis have no idea how much their encouragement helps me, some days I really feel like throwing in the towel, and other days I know that being a teacher is all I want to be in life (well other than a good person). So to all of you who put up with my rants, help pick me up when I am down, answer all my silly questions, put up with me doubting myself, buy me treats and tell me I will be a good teacher, thank you. Thank you more than words can say, I could not, would not be who/where I am without you all.

Wow 7.27.... bed time.... just kidding but I think that is all I have to ramble on about for tonight. Back to the study tomorrow, have to, got a whole lot of assignment due dates burning holes in my calendar!